Tue, 24 Apr 2012 01:08:13 -0800WeeblyFri, 02 Mar 2012 05:57:09 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2012/03/human-nature-is-good.htmlHaven't posted in a very long time.  Just wanted to pass on a beautiful letter Chen Arts&co received after a recent fundraiser for an artist model/friend.  Pat has been ill for some time now and is having financial difficulties.  A group of us got together, donated some work for an auction, and this was the result..lovely.

To My Extraordinary Friends and Colleagues,

 Despite the agony of da feet when I laid down in bed Tuesday night, my spirit was soaring, buoyed by the loving support of my family of friends and my son who gathered at and/or contributed to the Artists and Models party and benefit at Salemme.  It was such a joy to see all who attended – I just soaked up every word, hug, and kindness.  Other than time with my healers and my kids, I’ve been pretty isolated since October.  Thank you for your warm and generous embrace!

  I awoke the following morning feeling wiped out and a little discouraged – being sore and exhausted from a two-hour event drove home the reality that I’m nowhere near ready to return to an active life and employment, yet.  Fear set in as I wondered if I would be forced to leave my apartment.  I stumbled into the kitchen, followed by a shadow of apprehension.  I put water on for tea and dropped a Yogi tea bag in my cup; its little tag said “Together we can do what we can never do alone.”

  Well that woke me up.  Indeed.  I am not alone; I am in the loving company of angels.  Together we can do what I can not do alone.  I had found that figure study works because of teamwork.  And even though I can’t model right now, my team is still here for me.  As I was wrapping my head around the beauty of that – of you – the phone rang.  It was Joe Skrapits calling to tell me the good news – $2400 was raised Tuesday night, with possibly more to follow (later amended).  $2400, really!?!  I owe my landlord $2360.  Spectacular!

  Thank you one and all!  I am so relieved.  I signed the lion’s share over to my landlord yesterday and he is overjoyed too – not just because he got paid, but because he’s a nice guy and truly doesn’t want to evict me.  I am so very grateful to all of you.  I hope to follow with some personal thank-yous, eventually.  I have attached a (revised) thank you/informative letter I’d written for Tuesday, and an article about a remarkable doctor.  I do hope you’ll read them!  But in case you don’t, I will say here as well …

  I accept your kind assistance in the spirit it is given – with grace.  Nevertheless, I want to tell you that should you ever need my help – be it modeling, editing, cooking, or a hand to hold and a heart that hears – I would be ever so honored.  I’ll be back in the fold just as soon as I’m able.  In the meantime, please keep in touch. 

  Inspired by your most-awesome loving kindness,

Pat

]]>Mon, 19 Sep 2011 04:14:28 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2011/09/easton-river-arts.htmlJust finished Easton River Arts Festival.  It was a great weekend, sold 3 works and had some inspiring conversations with other artists.  We sold one of the new Enso paintings and an older work from 2009, also a color field painting from 09-10.  The painting from 09 was actually one completed in the first 2 weeks of work after getting back to painting following a 10 year "break". 
I met artist Karl Stirner, and had a thought provoking conversation about the direction of my work.  Keith and I will be tearing the studio apart and restructuring my work area as a result of that conversation.  Karl said he thought I should be working large scale (again) and made some mention of taking it to New York.  This week after the new studio tear down and set up, I begin work on 4 foot round enso/color depth work.  I am inspired.
]]>Mon, 28 Jun 2010 04:07:08 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/06/chen-arts-and-conexxions.htmlChen Arts/"Emergence" show to start August 7th and Conexxions/"We Experiment" begins July 10th.  Currently I'm working on dailies again.  Also rethinking my whole outlook on sales.  First off, I am no longer selling in Philadelphia (currently that is), so why such high prices on work?  I do value my work, I also value my time.....and......one day I'd like to be purely a working artist.  If I have no regular income streaming in from sales, that"s "kind of" tough.  So, keep making work, sell at a reasonable price, find someone who will represent my work regularly.  I guess I had it stuck in my head that I had to be making $500 plus from my work, since that's what I sold at in Philly.  I guess "working artist" trumps high priced gallery artist for now.  I mean, isn't my whole idea with this site art available to all?  Guess I forgot that.  Anyway, back to the studio.]]>Fri, 23 Apr 2010 05:23:57 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/04/turn-down.htmlJust received my turn down letter from the Greater Harrisburg Arts Council.  I was not one of the 150 from 2,076 applicants.  Saying that there were that many applicants makes me feel a little bit better.  I was however really hoping for this one.  It would be a great experience to see my work in a museum setting.  I'm not as crestfallen as I used to be when I received a turn down however.  There's not much to say about it I suppose.  I'm still waiting on word from Penn State Altoona and Ceres Gallery in New York.  I'll have to cross my fingers double this time.  I remind myself that I have made great strides in the last 17 months.  I've set up my studio, started painting again, set up this site and donation program, taken a course in life drawing (rekindling my love of the figure), participated in 2 drawing marathons, begun a new series of self portraits, had 2 one man exhibitions, participated in 2 group shows and will be in another group exhibition starting in May.  Now, I think it's just time to get into the studio and paint.  Forget about the application process for a while.     ]]>Mon, 19 Apr 2010 07:37:21 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/04/the-beauty-is-in-the-bending.html     I went outside on the deck today.  I was sitting on the steps, looking at my favorite tree I saw that it had some little white flowers growing which I had never noticed before.  (Usually I just look at it and admire it's overall form.)  I walked out to look more closely at the flowers.  Small green leaves, in the shape of  bamboo leaves are shooting out from it's branches.  Standing there I realized that at one time I thought I liked the tree better without it's foliage because I could see it's lovely curving arc.  This particular tree leans out to the side in an almost impossiible spiraling angle.  I listened to the birds and the sounds of the distant highway, I could hear the wind as it touched my body, slightly cool. 
     I turned to look at another of my favorite patches of trees and noticed how they too where bent and arching over.  I've always liked how they seem to make a doorway in their leaning.  "Their beauty is in the bending" I thought and then instantly realized that eventually they would grow to the point that they could no longer support their own weight and fall.  I turned and faced my favorite tree again.  Looking at it, sad that it would one day be gone, I thought "We all fall, dont we?".  
     It occured to me that the beauty of life is in the bending.  It isn't found in the strictness of our daily work routine or in driving our cars past one another, past life.  It is in the smallness, the soft voice of wind, the noticing of leaves.  It is in recognizing the unique nature of all things.  We all fall and if we do not bend, we may miss the beauty of our living.  Many of us will fall even before my favorite tree does.
       It's in the living, the attention to my breathing and life around me, in slowness that I can appreciate the beauty of my life.  I need to steal more moments like this for myself, divert from man made distractions/chaos, to remember, "the beauty is in the bending". ]]>Mon, 15 Mar 2010 06:00:23 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/03/day-off.htmlWorking on new painted portrait a bit today, titled "day job".  Yesterday, I showed a co-worker my progress on the portrait and a few more pics on my cell phone.  She asked, "how do you find time to do that?"  It made me feel good to hear her say that.  I often worry that I don't spend enough time in the studio.  I worry about alot of things, but I think that one bothers me most.  It's like every minute I'm away from the studio, I feel like I'm cheating myself, being lazy, not doing what I "should" be doing.  I just don't know how to accept myself....yet.  I set these impossibly high standards for myself, that I often don't meet.  Standards that I would never expect from another person, oddly enough.  Never mind societal acceptance.  How does one gain acceptance of the self exactly?  I've at least gotten rid of the self hatred I had in my teens, 20's.  And, I'm not constantly judging my every move either.  There's just this nagging idea every now and again that says "you shouldn't be doing this, it would be better if you did that, your wasting your day, if you don't (enter given activity) today....you'll regret it later and be mad at yourself.  It's happening even now as I type.  Why didn't I ever learn that it was OK to do what I want to do?  I'm rolling along fine, living how I want to live and wham YOU CAN'T DO THIS!  Well, I guess I know why, but how does one make that feeling go away?  Acceptance.  I can't change it.  It's there.  It's a feeling, a fear, and that doesn't make it "real".  Maybe I haven't figured out or found acceptance for myself because I don't know what the feeling is that I'm looking for.  Maybe it's just accepting things, myself, one situation at a time, moment to moment for what is....moment to moment, what is...I'm off to meditate.   ]]>Thu, 11 Mar 2010 07:58:50 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/03/samadhi.htmlPicking up framed piece today, titled Samadhi, which is something kind of elusive in the studio lately.  That's always the struggle I suppose.  The old question, "are you walking, walking?".  But in this case it's painting, painting.  Need to meditate today, speaking of that.  My breathing is shallow, feeling some non-descript unrest.  I guess anxiety rears it's ugly head, whether or not we know why.  I think maybe I just have too much going on.  Two shows up, apps in for 2 more, another one due April 1, day job struggles, when will I get a store?, etc, 4k water treatment system broke at home, cat has cancer, worried about my friend who is in an absolutely horid relationship situation, credit card debt up the ass......and on and on.  Actually, things could be much, much worse.  In fact, many times in the past, they have been.  Probably just non-descript anxiety because the little "bits" that are going on "tickle" my past struggles.  Odd how that works.  Not sure what the rest of the day will bring, run some errands, take a walk, paint, meditate.  Some, none or all of the above.....]]>Wed, 10 Mar 2010 07:33:19 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/03/why-zipnstein.html     It's odd that I haven't thought to explain the website title at all on here yet....  Here goes.  About 10-11 years ago when I lived in Philadelphia, I was driving around near the convention center with my current boyfriend and his best friend.  We were preparing to make a trip to Rome at the time and I had a rental car to get around in.  Traffic was bad and I was flying through the back alleys and side streets, exclaiming how easy it was to bypass the traffic by zipping here and there through the alleys.  This guy's best friend, who incidentally hated me and I think was jealous in some way, all of a sudden says, "woah, settle down there Zipnstein".  I know he didn't mean it as a compliment, but in any event, I liked the name...it had a certain ring. 
     I've never been one to fit in with the mainstream exactly right, even though part of me wanted to do so.  I guess you could even say I've been through life's back alleys, traveling different routes, sometimes at full out speed.  No matter how you label it, it's been my way, my route and I've followed it because I felt it to be right for me.   
     What I've come to understand is that I'd rather be truly myself than wear a mask of what I think others find acceptable or what they'd "prefer" that I'd do.  So...insult or not, I consider the label "Zipnstein" to be a badge of honor.  I figure it's better to take the trip through life with joy, allowing myself to do what I consider to be best, all along the way, than try to conform to some idea (which incidentally only occurs in my own head anyway) of what I think others expect from me.  After all, when the road ends for any of us, it's you who were really driving the whole time, not some "backseat driver" who was only along for part of the ride.]]>Tue, 09 Mar 2010 08:48:43 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/03/20-minutes.html20 minutes before I leave for work...enough time to do a drawing, yet here I sit blogging.  I guess because it's been a while since I've been on here and I don't want to make myself late for work. I do tend to lose track of time in the studio. 
     The drawing marathon at Lafayette was great.  I only stayed for 9 hours, but it was very productive.  I am so pleased with the work.  I posted two of them on The Figure page. 
     Kind of dragging my feet a bit on the current self portrait, not sure if it's fear or what.  Sometimes it's good to just leave things alone when I get scared of "ruining it".  Mostly it's because the work is done and I just can't see it yet.  With this one, I'm not sure, so there it sits. 
Still waiting on a response from Ceres and I don't hear from Harrisburg museum until April 30th.  Small works application is due April 1st, so I need to get proper photos of the work completed.  This beautiful weather helps, outside shots are always best.  And off I go... ]]>Tue, 02 Mar 2010 10:22:29 -0800http://www.zipnstein.com/1/post/2010/03/vacation.htmlBit of work in studio yesterday and more today.  Not sure where the pieces are "going"...but going is good in any event.  Five more days off from day job.  Still working here and there on the "day job" portrait, but also not sure of it's direction.  When it's done, it's done, as usual I suppose.  It's good to have some time off, balance is key.  ]]>